Day 1
Everything starts here, at day 1.
One last go at this with Jessica. Two stipulations, that she has friends that are men and non-platonic, and no secrets.
I’ve considered a lot of other options, but then I’d turn Jessica into my daughter, not a wife. That would really solve nothing in the long run, we’d just end up resenting each other more.
I’ve placed the ball firmly in her court. I’ve talked quite enough about what I want and need, she knows this in and out. I know I’ve talked it enough because I’m really tired of talking it.
I’m a bit leery to be honest, because the last time I said this it backfired sort of. Jess didn’t sleep with that cat though, mainly because I added too much ‘drama’ to the mix. That’s ok with me though, apparently some drama sometimes serves a purpose too.
I’m hoping that Jess see’s the bigger picture. Sure, it’s about me, it’s about her, but we have a family too. I know she knows this, and I’m not going to spend anymore time beating this horse.
I do love her. That doesn’t mean that I’ll put up with much more, I’m at the end of my emotional tolerance and probably over-extended on that.
Anyways…Day 1 is today. It started at about 5am. The dynamics have changed, but that’s all it is, change.
