When is the right time to pull the rings and eject?
Is it when you’re over friendly territory?
Is it when you know your bird just won’t stay in the air any longer?
is it when you think you won’t cause any damage on the ground?
A million questions have to be going through the mind of a pilot when he or she ejects, maybe less if they’re engulfed in a fireball though.
I feel like that pilot, knowing that my bird is severely damaged, I want to keep in in the air for a little longer, get it back to the tarmac and save it; though I know that eventually, very soon in fact, something is going to break, and I will have no choice but to either to have a very eventful ride to the ground or I can punch out and land with some bruises, maybe a broken bone or two, but able to fly again soon enough.
My wife is cutting herself again. She did this about this time last year. Last year our relationship was starting out to get rough, I thought it was because of the holidays, so forth. I find out that she had fallen for another guy, and it was about that time she started cutting herself. Nobody really knows that, most people think that it was because of me not being home enough, which could be part of it, but after she is cutting herself again, I think this is the case again. She’s recently fallen in love with another guy again. A married 23 yr old kid. She’s going through a rough patch with him now. Who knows why, I ask her about it and she tells me that it’s not happening. However, when I take my feelings out of the mix and pay attention, everything is pretty apparent, pretty transparent.
Last year is repeating itself too. We’ve already spent over $100 on booze since the first, which I’m calling quits to. She’s cutting herself. She acts like a heartbroken 13 yr old kid who just got her heart broken. More or less, I’m tired of reliving shit, knowing that I can do everything that is possible, and nothing is going to work, because I’m not the key, my cock isn’t the key, my providing for the family isn’t the key. The key is someone else, always someone else.
It could also be, in part, that I do make her life miserable. I took her away from her son, her family, got a job in Kansas. I demand absolutely nothing from her, which I am guessing that is exactly the same as if I were demanding the impossible and everything from her. I don’t get it, and it doesn’t make any sense, but it’s there none the less.
I know that if this kid gets a job and leaves his wife, she won’t even bother to tell me that she’s leaving, she’ll be gone. I know that if/when those two conditions are met, I won’t get a thank you or a good bye, just a mailing address to have stuff shipped to.
Here’s the question. I know my bird is crippled. When is the right time to punch out. In the past 3 weeks of hindsight, I think I’ve been on the bird entirely too long as it is and need to just take my chances, that’s the gut speaking, the mind. My heart, well, that’s never been a consideration of any body’s, and me being the only one concerned makes me definitely in the minority, therefore it’s an insignificant event.
There’s my answer. Thank you crappy Dell keyboard for your insight.
