Of Pens and Swords

So I’m bored, my work pc is about to shit on me, since they keep pushing patches and updates and not doing enough testing. Its not just mine, but everybody that has the same model of machine as mine. It’s annoying, and it’s my job…but it’s leaving me with dead time in the middle of the day, when I’m the busiest. nuts…

I’m glad to see that Zen has updated his blog. I talk with him pretty regularly as well, and I know that he’s busy trying to piece back together his life after a hectic two years. If I didn’t have this job, I’d be much in the same boat as him, and I can vividly imagine how worried I’d be. I wish there were a million things I could do to help him right now.

I myself am getting worried about a few things, one of which is getting my schooling rocking and rolling again. I definitely feel the sense of urgency to get the ball rolling again. Another is trying to determine how long to stay in Kansas. It’s far from the kids and that just sucks. Having a steady source of income, the possibility of moving again in the winter with a 2 month old child, losing school benefits, so forth, are key decision making points that I have to take into consideration. At least if I stay put for another year, I’ll finish my degree, have it paid for, and be able to look for a job that I’m more qualified for. It’s the whole weighing the issues that’s hard, or more coming to terms to make decisions based on how the issues are wieghed and not on just speculation and want. It’s annoying how life can be both really good to you and suck at the same time. It’s more good than suck though.

Zen is going on 3 weeks in the greater Atlanta area, and I think just the area is motivating him. That I’m happy about. I know finding a project or job is driving him nuts though. Considering that I put in applications for positions in October and I’m just now getting hits on them, 4.5 months later, isn’t very encouraging. That’s just on me though, and I was applying in a region typically difficult in finding a technical position in which I’m looking for. He’s most likely going to start at a world renowned university though, and that alone has to be an uplifting experience. Well, me putting myself in his shoes, it would be. Exciting would be the word.

Ok, I have the downtime, I’m going to study. Hasta.